November has begun and it is Diabetes Awareness month. This is the time that diabetes advocacy takes on a whole new meaning. Diabetes education and awareness is extremely important. In fact, it is critical in order to get the resources we need to live long, healthy lives. This is when my voice is supposed to be the loudest.
But my heart is just not in it this year. I do feel like I am failing as a diabetes advocate. But with the loss that surrounds me from Hurricane Sandy, I can’t seem to focus. I wasn’t directly affected by destruction. But my twin sister was. And so, so, so many other people. I will never forget the desperation and terror in her voice when she called me fearing for her and her family’s lives when the water from the beach started approaching their house. It was the longest moments of my life waiting to hear from her again. I will never forget the news stories of neighborhoods close by, just gone. I will never forget the sight of her neighborhood or her house from the destruction. I will certainly never forget the compassion and generosity of friends, family and complete strangers to her and others.
I know it will get better. And I’m hoping in a couple of weeks when things calm down a bit, I can focus again. Until then, please don’t mind the absence of my advocate voice. I’m there in spirit and commend all of my diabetes community friends for all their efforts. My heart is just someplace else right now.